A night with my cousin older than me

I am a very quiet and shy child. Very little of this memory goes back to my 16 years old. Khalem's daughter was 20 years old at that time and a student. My mother did not go back. She told me, "Vahid Pashoo, go there. Do not be alone. I said I'm not bored at all. I'm going. I was small and then Marzieh, my mother, then I, my father was a guard at that time. I told my mother without any intention that I should sleep in front of the heater. It was very cold. I took my legs to Marzieh's feet, I saw that she was not moving, I put my hands on her arms, for example, I slept, I rubbed her arms, I saw that she was doing nothing, my courage increased. Forward I pulled his pants and shirt down to my knees, it was obvious that he was awake because he was accompanying me. I pulled myself down. I kissed her on the face, I kissed her, but she did not do what I could, for example, I ate her lips while I was asleep. It was hot when I saw Marzieh, as her pants were stuck to the bottom of the corner. I got up. I spat 6 times. I did a lot of spraying, I poured water, I spilled on the sprayer, I stayed the same a few minutes later, I saw Marzieh bring her hand back. And in the morning I got up and went to Dier Three and in class, all I thought about was last night's work, and I was just scared and embarrassed, thinking that I was going home to see their blood go away. I broke down and opened the door and Marzieh and my sister and what you and Marzieh said, you are not coming, I threw my head and said no and I came home. And Marzieh got married and became much sexier and fitter, but she stopped writing