Touching it

I wanted her femininity, my being was beating like a pulse to unite with the masculinity of her existence, my underwear was getting wet. I did not have this feeling, people came into my life and expressed interest, but I could not even think of hugging them. I was a neutral girl. I stood on the same issue with the opposite sex. I can not go, I pass in their arms, but I stood in front of everyone and how hard it is to be a girl and not be able to be with someone you want. Because we only wanted friendship, not the relationship between a girlfriend and a boyfriend, we got to know each other, we understood each other, so our friendship remained and it became more and more day by day that it took months to believe this friendship. Friendship is not what we did not want love, we did not say that we love each other as our own love Not our friend, but where I wanted to go and finish, this friend who I thought was a one-sided love confessed that he fell in love with me, but we could not be both wife and together. I wanted everything to be only for myself I touch her, I kiss her, and I wanted to experience being a woman with her. It's hard not to touch someone who wants her whole being, but maybe it's harder to miss the person you experienced without me. You could not say these things elsewhere if you say I would like to have sex with my love, they think about a thousand kinds of awkward things, but maybe it will be a little better here, he understood people like me.