Catherine

The mansion was not dirty. It did not smell. It was cold outside. I was wearing a scarf and hat, and yet I was cold.

The ground was frozen.

I put the bills on the bed and began to undress.

I said: Where are you?

Did not answer.

I said: I am Iranian.

He did not say a word. He did not even smile the way it was customary or I thought it was customary.

I regretted coming. He could not return. It was not customary. It was not good. Maybe he hated it. Maybe even

He was heartbroken, though there was no reason to be disappointed. I saw him wipe his lipstick with a paper towel.

I was relieved.

I said: What is your name?

Said Katarina. It was the first time I had heard his voice.

Catherine. کاتاريناى من. Catherine.

I said: Where are you? I asked again. Because there was nothing to say. I was in trouble. I did not come just to take heart and

To go. I was not drunk either. I wanted to get to know him first.

It was more like that. Catherine. I said several times: Katarina and she laughed. I mean you did not laugh. He smiled.

She was naked. I overthrew him naked. He was young.

I said: How old are you? Watch. Sewing eyes in my eyes

Guess as if he wanted to say. I guess he does not know German. Or he does not know well. That was the rule.

I said: Do you know German?

He said: Yes.

I said: Where did you learn?

Said Poland. in school. He counted German and pronounced it correctly. Catherine. A girl from Poland. کاتاريناى من. Thought

I could not work here. If I could, if I could, if I could and I was not afraid of the consequences

I would make excuses and punch and kick someone. I was like this. I said carefree. I said to myself or even loudly in Persian: Carefree and I went and sat on the edge of the bed next to Katarina who was naked and put her hand

The column was worn. He crawled into my arms like a cat, agile and agile. Lips. I burned. No expectations

I did not have to start like this. It was not his custom to kiss. I said he must have liked me. From

I smell. From my body. I said she probably loves my men. He must have been a novice. I mean, I found out later that he was a novice

Is. گلتيديم. He wanted to suck. My heart did not come. I do not know why. All twenty-one more years

did not have. It was my daughter's place. I said carefree. not Necessary. Said you do not like? I said no. I liked more to

Let's be cute. I wanted him to kiss me again. Suck my lower lip. I was hot, I got hotter.

I kissed him. I kissed her throat. I had to find a way. I had to find out what he liked and

Why does he like it? I slammed my tongue into his ear. I grabbed her hair and tulip

I sucked his ear. Calm down so that it does not hurt. I was careful not to get hurt. Enough of her nipples

They had sucked, he had become sensitive. I did not even punch her breasts. The baby was in pain. I did not want to

Torment. I told myself he should enjoy it. If he enjoyed it and could, I might have been less of a hassle. Then there

I punched him and when I saw that he was kind of wet, I paired with him. He closed his eyes and I did

I hugged him and we moved slowly and I was all aware of who was crying. If you complain

It turned out he liked it. I do not complain. But it was wet. I was upset that you did not complain. دلم مي

He wanted me to hear his moans. The bed sounded. It was wooden and used. His voice broke my nerves

Did. I said carelessly and consciously I followed the body of the woman with whom I had become one and she was moving in me and I in

He was moving and we were living together. Katarina and I in that moment that was just a moment from

life. Ikash continued. He was hiding his head in my arm and my arm was biting

گزيد. I was embarrassed by this. I became angry. I got miserable. Madness must be as it is in that moment

Was. I said come back and come back. I was in control of it now. He was holding his hand to the edge of the bed and I was behind him

I was paired and dominated by him and he could swing freely in me and with me. even

The sound of the bed buzzing no longer mattered at that moment. It didn't even matter where I was or where Katarina was

And where it comes from and how long our acquaintance is. These became important later. At that moment, the only sound was his moaning

I could hear and feel his wetness and from his wetness and from hearing the sound of his moans and the way he himself

I enjoyed swinging skillfully. شد. But when I asked him if you were. I did not say. I did not

I was. This was already clear. I did not want to be early. I did not want to be at all. As if I could do it

The moment was ending. I did not want to regret it again like the first time. If I could, I might regret it later

I could.

Finally I said to him: Do not think I did not enjoy. I did not want to be. Because you are like a gift in my life

Were you or are you. Katarina was a gift for me. I do not say. It is the same as truth and pure truth. said

I did not. I said it does not matter. Tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or anytime. Then we went to hug. We took refuge together. at that

The room with the window open to an empty remote parking lot. A room on the third or fourth floor of a

The mansion was dilapidated. Naked in my arms. Me: A man. And he: a woman. Naked. Like the beginning of creation. Without

Even a fig leaf that is the largest of the genitals. See how big the world is. See what adventures every day

It happens. In Kabul, in New York, in Seoul, or anywhere. The moment we were in each other's arms, in it

Room, none of the adventures that always matter. I smelled him. I still smell tension

LT is. My breath and my mind are still full of memories of his body. He had come in my arms and gathered himself

He was in my arms and we were not tied at all. Sometimes we moved in each other's arms. Instead

We would, for example. He would come at me or I would roll over him. With this large body and wide shoulders

With the breadth of masculinity and the volume of masculinity of a man who was hungry and greedy and troubled and

He has been rebellious and now finds refuge in the arms of a woman who is said to be a prostitute. I'm kinder

I have never seen him more generous than him. If he is young, I will bow before him and his skirt

I kiss - and those kisses!

He brushed my chest hair with his hand. It was as if he was looking for a place where he could kiss. He smiled only once.

I mean, I was staring into his eyes. I wanted to see how strong he was. I wanted to see the strength of seeing the look

Has a man or not. Had. It was I who closed my eyes because I could not close my eyes

Curiosity of a woman who was full but denied. Because in them

His femininity was not satisfied with the masculinity of a man. An hour passed and we were still in our arms.

He said: It's time to go and I left. That is, I quickly washed myself in the toilet bowl that was cracked

Was. Then I put on my clothes. He tightened his clothes earlier than I did. He sat down from my presence

Did not clean. I offered him a cigarette at the door.

Said Morsi.

I said: What time is it tomorrow? He shrugged.

I said: What does it mean?

He said: I do not know.

I said: I am on my way.

He said: I do not know. Believe me, I do not know.

I said: I will come and I will go. That means I was there on time the next day. You laughed until you saw me. This time it seemed a shorter way.

This time I was happy and glad that Katarina is there. This woman was a gift. Who was thinking about working for

To kill here? This time we became friends. We knew each other. I was worried. I was not worried. مي

I knew that this woman, with all her femininity, would fall in love with the man who I am. Are you kidding? Maybe ten

Another man before me had emptied himself in that bed in his arms. Such a woman who is devastated

Is. It's like a thief's house. Such a woman who is probably tired. He was awake all night.

From night to morning, for a piece of bread, he had every ace and nekas in his mouth. What a joke. even

I can not stand a moment.

I said: You sleep here on this bed in this room at night

With this situation, with the view of this parking lot and the moon disk that light shines through this ruins into this room?

Did not answer. Crawled into my arms. It was as if he wanted to say carelessly whether it was the tail of booty or whatever

I understand. I understood. Why do you have to see those ruins when it is only a moment and tomorrow

I do not know why we should think of those men who before me, on the same bed with the same heartbroken woman

They have taken and gone and there is no sign of them except the hoods used in the trash.

Garbage that was in the corner of the room. Why did I look at the bucket at all? Why did I look at those ruins at all or at

The moon pill to make me sad? He had hugged me and I imagined that I had hugged him

He seeks refuge in me. He was lost in the arms of the man I was. I did not see him. Only he feels

I did. The heat of tension and the smell of tension and the scent of her hair and the softness of her breasts. I caressed him.

I dipped my head and sniffed between her hair. I could not bear it. I took his hand under his chin.

I looked into his eyes. His eyes were drooping. He no longer avoided my gaze. He was familiar with me and I was with

I was familiar with him. The only thing that mattered at that moment was the acquaintance. Except for familiarity, in that moment there are adventures that each

The day that happens in the world no longer mattered. Then we reunited. It means he wanted it. If

He did not want me to be in his arms for hours. But he rolled and rolled me with him and in himself.

I could hear his moans now. I said for a moment that it would not hurt. But when I listened to his moans

I saw he likes it. The way he was moving in me and moving me, he had made me miserable. I said

You made me miserable, Katarina, and she moaned louder. I said you are driving me crazy Katarina and moaning and so on

I whispered in his ear and occasionally sucked his earlobe and he became more and more selfless with each word.

Until it happened. I was not. I did not want to be.

I said: Are you?

He said: I did. And he pulled me on himself again and got lost under me. And so we kept getting lost in each other

We took refuge.

I said: Tomorrow evening my guest. خنديد. He said no.

I said: I will come early in the morning to go and have breakfast together.

Said no.

I said why? Did not answer.

I said: Do you know how to dance?

Said no.

I said: O liar! You mean, like, saltines and their ilk, eh?

laughed

I said: How much do you get until morning? Whatever you get, double it from me

Take it and come with me.

He said no.

I said: Why, why? Did not answer. He hid his head between my arms.

I said: Let's live together.

Said no.

I said: You mean I do not deserve you?

Said why. but no. Also short and concise

Crying like a sob. Like a broken scream in the throat. Like the misery of a lonely man.

I said: Only one night. Said no.

Not even one night.

I said: Do you have a husband?

He said no.

I said: Is there a man in your life?

Said no. What man?

I said: Do you have children?

He said: Yes. I said how many?

Said two. A boy and a girl. Dominic and Patrick. Dominic four months. Five-year-old Patrick.

I said it does not matter. We are going to take your children from Poland and bring them to Germany with us.

Said no.

I said: Why?

He said the same.

I said: It does not matter that we know each other here. What difference does it make?

There is no word.

I said: As if I remembered you.

He said: It's time to go and I cleaned myself from him again like the first day and got dressed and went down the stairs together

I went.

At the foot of the first floor, I saw a room I had not seen on the first day. A man was sitting in that room behind a table

چوبى. The room was open. Our eyes met for a moment. I wanted to say hello. Not out of politeness or out of fear. more

Out of habit. But I said it must be Jack. As he sat with that tattooed arm and under his shirt

A ring sleeve in the cold of that night must have been his jack. When he opened the door,

I said: I will come tomorrow. He said: Tomorrow is the last day.

I said: Why? He did not answer and closed the door.

I have had many adventures. Many women in my life have blinked. But it has rarely happened and until then it has not happened at all

There has never been a woman in my life, in such a place as Katarina, a girl from

Poland. Catherine. A piece of jewelry. Is it possible that he was so kind and helpless and was kind again?

Stay kind? I was thinking about these things on the way. I knew it was impossible to do even one more day

He was with her for three days. Why did he not accept my invitation? Why was he quiet and why not even

Accepted to spend the night and only one night in my bed, at home and in my bed until morning? streets

It was deserted that night. I was driving fast. It was past midnight and I was speeding through the streets

Take me to a house that is spacious and empty. I was listening to an Afghan song and so on

I was driving fast. I still remember: the safe box of goldsmiths. The heart of a woman who was likened to this

Song to the safe box of goldsmiths. And that tar or setar song or whatever. Another kind of music that in

At that time, the night matched my mood and day.

It was seven-thirty when I arrived. Was not. I wore a scarf and a hat. I was still cold. طات سرما

I do not have. I stood for a quarter to twenty minutes to find it. From there, in the three corners of a wall where I was standing,

I saw a wise man who closed the door behind him in the mansion. دلم ريخت. I was sad, more than sad

Was compressed. I went forward and saw another woman, who was not Katarina, sitting on her stool. I was relieved.

I could not bear to see Katarina closing the door behind another man and sitting on the door.

His stool is waiting for the next customer. I knew it was like this. But I could not bear to see. I was sure if

I saw the man, his face was in front of my eyes all the time. I do not know how long I waited in the cold.

There is the same wall. Maybe a quarter or a half an hour later, Katarina appeared. He smiled when he saw me. the door

He opened it and we went back to the same room with the same view and the same situation. On the way, at the foot of the first floor

I saw the same man I had seen the night before. With a hollow on the arm and a ring sleeve shirt and these.

It was as if it had been repeated the night before. If Katarina did not leave after three nights or did not have to return

Poland, the same scene and the same situation could be repeated every night. At the foot of this mansion. With

The man who was Jaksh was probably either standing up or whatever. With these wooden stairs and its facade, paraing and tablets

The moon behind it the ruins and the trash can with the used hoods and the old bed and the sound

He gave. Then we came to the same room again and that night was the third night and the last night. Like the Last Supper. Like a trip

The pilgrim who ends. He sat on the bed and stared at me.

He said: I must smoke a cigarette first.

I said: Let us kill together.

خنديد. As he laughed, I thought for a moment that a fourteen or fifteen-year-old girl was sitting on that bed.

I said: It's just tonight. It is impossible to see each other again. He looked at me. خيره. He was looking at me with the curiosity of a little girl.

I said: It is a pity. M: Why?

Did not answer.

I said: Are you afraid of me or do you not trust me?

Said no. Why should I be afraid of you?

I said: Are you afraid of anyone?

He said: Maybe.

I said: Do you have Aqabalaser? Frowned. Did not answer.

But as he frowned, it turned out that he had Aqabalasar. It was all done. I was scared and I hated myself and my fear. Why didn't I have the guts to do the work?

He wanted to shut up. I pretended I didn't want to kiss her, but I finally kissed her and she laughed. You laughed like children. When he laughed, he suddenly felt like a little girl. He was becoming a child.

He said: Do not worry. Do not think about it. We have the same one tonight. I was surprised. I hugged him tightly.

بوييدمش. I kissed him. I kissed her throat. I kissed her breasts. I kissed her navel. I shook my head

His feet and sucked. می ناليد. Then we fell in love again and became one. Now I was naked

entire. I was both myself and him and he was with me and he was boiling in me and moving in me and taking me with him

He was moving in and this was the last time he became me and I trembled a long tremor all over his body

And it was at that moment that my manhood came to fruition. That peak moment

It was my manhood. I have never been so manly in my life in the last thirty-nine years, and it is possible

I will never be a man like that moment in the years to come.

I was kneeling on the bed and he came in my arms. He hid his head between my arm and cried. He did not let me see his tears.

But I knew they were crying. He cried silently and cried so much that I could not see. As his head

He could not see her tears in my arm. He hugs me tightly in his arms and

He was crying. Then he kissed me and this was the last kiss on the third night, which was the last night.

He said: Go and I went. This time I did not cleanse myself of him. I got dressed. He did not come with me. He was sitting on the bed and looking

He told me how I dress. I opened the door. I stood for a moment before leaving the frame. this

It was the last time I saw him.

I said: It may be ten years for people to know each other, or even sixteen years, and it may be only three days. But one day everything will end.

I closed the door and left. It was past midnight. It's snowing. There was no one on the street.

He was beating deadly packs.

It was as if he was in a hurry. It was as if he was about to go somewhere and he was in a hurry.

I said again: It's a pity. He did not say anything. He lay down

On the bed. It was melodic. It was cute. Katarina was kind to me.

He said: Come. And I got naked and went to hug

She. I hid my head between her breasts and caressed her. Another pack smoked cigarette butts. He said do not kill?

I said why. I lay down next to him. I packed one or two packs of cigarette butts in the cigarette case on the bed

It was all the time and I had not seen it during this time I turned it off. What else have I not seen? I do not remember.

I wish the last hour would never end. I wanted the man on the first floor, in it

There was no room. Does it cause a problem for this woman?

I said: Let's go to my house together.

Said no.

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