Love and betrayal of Mary

I am 21-year-old Maryam. This story is both love and betrayal. I only know how to give it to myself. Secrets of the family, I got engaged on our own level, we got married reluctantly, we got married for a month, then I realized what I did, a big mistake in my life, Farhad's stubbornness. I took refuge in my first love, she was desperate, Farhad, we were separated, we were happy to get married this time, but our love was equal to the past. Imam did not feel guilty, even for a moment, to enjoy being one with my love I destroyed Rome I went to myself. I did not repent, and I answered. But now I love her husband. Our relationship has not improved, but it has not gotten better.