Love means mysticism

Hello, the story I am writing to you has always bothered me, and when I think about it, my heart beats faster and I think what would have happened if I did not have such memories, I mean I was wrong, but if it was wrong, it was a sweet and unforgettable mistake. The barracks of Kermanshah province, because of my diploma, I had become a company sergeant and served in the army. I was 172 boxers and nervous because I was the leader of a large company. I took myself. He forced me to leave because he had a lot of responsibility to keep a lot of soldiers. In short, I was always alone, even though the children came together because I was older, but neither of them could accommodate the family. I burned some of my own blankets and the cadres of the company without permission. In the middle, one of the soldiers named Erfan was farther away from the heater and the blanket did not reach him. You can not give me a blanket, I said with a state of embarrassment that it is over, I am ashamed, and I saw that he went and slept with a sad state that did not come to him. I was happy to not have him and I was from Ahvaz. He was from Bakhtiari, Khuzestan. He served for seven or eight months, but due to his acquaintance, he was a company courier and his job was easier than other soldiers. I had no experience with gay until then and I did not like it at all, but I do not know what magic was in his laughter, however, I could never even think of having sex with the opposite sex. And I was sitting on the edge of the bed, I wanted to get rid of him, I started joking with him that your Ahvazi Baba, who is always burning in hell, now let him cool down for a few months, let him remember, he started joking that you know what falafel means, what do you mean? What do you know about Ahvaz, what did I say to it? He came back and said, "Although you left, but you have white girls, I frowned. I turned my back on him to get out of bed and get to the work of statistics and shutting down, but for a moment I saw that when my back was in front of me, I felt something stiff. And I laughed and told him that his friend was ignorantly straightening his face when I saw that he blushed and pulled the blanket out of embarrassment. There was a fire in my heart that I did not know what the next part, where the main story begins, will be called by the same name in a few days. Thank you.